Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Can't take it anymore

Blame me for being over sensitive over petty issues, I don't mind. 

I was super busy since the last few weeks with piles of works, tight deadlines, adhoc assignments, etc. Everyone else in the office was super busy too, I know.

So there was one day, I noticed that my Manager was on the phone the whole day since morning, browsing non-work related things from the internet and gossiping with my colleague in between. Right during the lunch time, he sent me an e-mail asking me to do an urgent task. When I get back from lunch, he asked me to call someone to check on something without proper instruction. I was so mad, because he asked me to do all the fucking things while he spent his day doing shits so I told him I have to complete the urgent task and suggested that he call that someone, in a quite high intonation. But he, being the manager, of course he won so I got to call that someone.

Because the instruction he gave me was unclear and because I didn't want to talk to him, I refer the instruction to the boss. I called that someone and came back to my boss for update. My boss called both of us into his room soon after to discuss about work and then this happened:

This manager attacked me personally for my incapability to perform 'certain' duty due to my pregnancy and claimed that I'm incompetent compared to the other female staff.

I was like:

What?

At that very moment, I feel like yelling at him telling him all the things I have done all this while but surprisingly, I just hold my breath, didn't say anything until the end of conversation I told my boss that I'm willing to do any tasks the manager said I can't even though I'm pregnant. I mean, I have performed those tasks before, successfully.

Out of the boss room, I went straight to my work station and didn't talk to the manager, until today. He didn't even say a word to me either. I don't mind, and I don't care. I mean, what does he expect? He humiliated me in front of the boss, just because I got mad at him for being such a jerk, does that make him feel 'superior'? If that's so, I pity him for having to do that just to cover his insecurities. Seriously, I lost my respect for him. If he is mad at me for being mad at him, talk to me about it. Be professional.

I don't respect a person for his title or position alone, I respect him for his professionalism, attitude, intelligence.

Note #1: He told the boss he will carry out the task that is supposed to be given to me, which is ok. But, he needs my colleague's assistance which is HAHAHAHAHA cause that task is supposed to be carried out alone. Competent lah sangat?

Note #2: No, you don't have to remind me of your position, I know. That position doesn't indicate your intelligence anyway.

Note #3: Guys, if you are a boss and you have subordinates, please don't do what my manager did. Seriously, it doesn't create respect. It might creates hatred. And at one point of time, your subordinates will started to question your capabilities, talking about you behind your back, etc. There will be no harmony in the workplace though every thing looks ok on the surface. Your subordinates reflect you. Be better than they are in all aspects.

Friday, May 19, 2017

Trusted Skincare (so far)

I have been searching for the right skincare all this while. Been using various brands of products before, and most of the them stop working after a few months of use. I don't have major skin problem, just pimples that appear during menstrual and early stage of pregnancy, and tiny wrinkles around the corner of my eyes.

After the long search, I have finally found the one that suits my skin very well (at least for now). 

Mary Kay Timewise
I have heard of Mary Kay many times before, but at that time I wasn't so particular about skincare. I'd just grab any brand at the store counter that I find affordable. Until about a year ago, my friend promotes this product and herself as a testimony. I have to admit that she looks younger than her age, her skin is glowing and flawless, with invisible signs of aging!

So I give Mary Kay a try. 

Been using it for a year now and I can finally see the result. Well actually, I didn't notice until my friends and family members told me my skin looks better than before. Overall, I'm happy with Mary Kay and I'll definitely use it until it stops working maybe? 😁 Anyway, the cleanser can lasts up to 6 months, and the moisturizer can lasts up to a year (or maybe more) depending on the usage. The star product is the cleansing brush, which cleans the skin thoroughly and effortlessly.

the brush

Price wise, a bit pricey but once you see the result, I assure you it's worth every penny. So with that, it's a highly recommended product I must say.

Tuesday, April 4, 2017

Second pregnancy

I thought being pregnant with the second child would be much easier than the first.

I was wrong.

Severe nausea, lost of appetite, exhaustion and mood swing are amongst the symptoms. Plus, my daughter has suddenly becoming extra cranky, crying for attention everytime I am around. She refuses to be with someone else including her father, despite being scolded and ignored by me.

I noticed that I have becoming more vocal lately. I find it easy to show my emotions, disagreements, and opinions without being afraid of rejection and criticism. Or maybe I am just being protective with my emotions and feelings so rather than getting hurt, I'd rather speak up? Sometimes when my husband talks a bit louder than usual (not yelling though), I'd tell him to slow down his voice and not to get mad for no reason. Lucky me, he understands 😁

During the last pregnancy, I stayed with my parents so I didn't have to do the chores. This time, I have to do everything by myself, and of course with countless help from my husband. But I tell you, it takes me a week or more to do things that can be done within an hour or so in a normal state like folding the clothes, sweeping the floor, etc. 

The first trimester was tough. The beginning of the second trimester is going well so far, hopefully it will lasts till the end.